Now
Sam is so alert, more and more everyday. His head follows movement and his eyes light up with the newness of world around him. He is such a momentary being, his little legs pumping in delight or frustration and his ears responding to new noises. Olives frantic bark and the sound of the blender don't rattle him (perhaps because he heard them in the womb). It is a joy to get to witness his amazement, to be part of his daily discoveries. He rocks with both feet in his hands in the happy baby pose. He yearns to stand and loves when you support him, his two feet firm on the earth. This boy is going to be a runner, a doer, a constant yearner for new adventures. I can feel it and his astrological chart, read last week by Lyn Dalebout, confirms it. Somedays I wonder if he will even crawl, his desire to stand and move on two feet so strong and purposeful.
We went to Bozeman this past weekend to see Jamie's grandfather who was sick in the hospital. One of his wishes was to see little Sam and it felt so wonderful to be able to fulfill that desire and venture up north to Montana. Sam and I made the journey ourselves, with our trusty pooch, and Jamie met us on Friday night. The drive to Bozeman is so mellow and rolling, currently shades of green, spring lush and vibrant right now. Sam slept most of the way, a delight, and I listened blissfully to a Seth Godin book on CD. I feel so blessed to have such a strong family network, my own and my in-laws. The love that is so apparent from so many directions for little Sam (and for Jamie and I, for that matter) is so supportive and a huge boost.
Trying to manifest patience with the process of life today. Being content in the now, not wishing that Sam was a little older, myself a little more dedicated, my life more directed. This is the work I need to be doing now, being present with myself and my little boy. I can tell that I haven't gotten much alone time recently, as my lizard brain seems more jumpy and tense than usual. I need to get away by myself this weekend, if only for a couple of hours and be outside or go to Browser or sit in Lotus with a cup of tea and my journal.
Namaste!